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Leaving the Known for the Unknown

We’ve been to Denver before. Denver is not new to us, in fact it was a little like coming home. Right now, if I could pick anywhere to live it would be there. I love it. I love the people, I love the landscape, I love the city. I love the outskirts of the city.

Turns out though – neither Sam or I have ever driven PAST Denver. Nope. Denver was the edge of the known universe. Up to the eastern city limit, we could recognize landmarks and have a general idea of what to expect. Past it and my brain had a hard time even visualizing what to expect. Is the middle of the country as flat as I think it is? What’s out there? Does it all look like…gulp… Nevada?

In some ways our journey really starts here near the edge of the Rocky Mountains. From here everything is new – we have to work together a little better to make sure things don’t go sideways. To make sure that we stick together as a family. I’ll admit I’m a little nervous.

We pull into a gas station in the middle of nowhere and I have a sudden sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. “Are we really going to do this??” I think to myself. I look out over the brown, desert Eastern Colorado landscape and just for a moment I am afraid. There are so many things that could go wrong, yet at the same time there are so many that could go right.

Once again we leave the known for the unknown. Time to take a deep breath and just drive.

 

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Take a Deep Breath, then Leap

I rolled over in bed this morning, and lay there quietly watching the sun filter through our curtains. The kids were still asleep in their beds and for the moment, all was still. “This is it,” I thought to myself. “This is the day we finally leave.”

 We have been planning and scheming since last March. So many late nights, dreams, aspirations, and excitement all rolled into one adventure. Sam mentioned to me that this is really our chance to start over – even though our travels are not permanent, even though we will eventually come home, for now, we can be whomever we want to be. Our family can be whatever we want it to be. I don’t know what to expect. I feel like we are standing on the edge of the light looking into the darkness, the unknown. I think it takes a lot of faith to do what we’re doing – and I hope the faith I have is enough.

Sam and I linger slightly in bed, but soon its time to get up and get going. My calm before the storm moment is over. Sam is up first and he dashes down the stairs to figure out a DVD burning problem for one of my clients. I hop in the shower, getting that over with so that I can put the last load of towels in the washing machine. As I’m drying my hair and putting my make up, Rachel wanders into our room, still heavy-eyed with sleepy.

 “Mom?” she says, “will you cuddle me? I’m scared.” This is a first for her. Up until now its been excitement and anticipation, but I think the reality of what we are doing is finally starting to sink in. We cuddle in the bed for just a few moments before I need to get up and get going again. Hopefully it was enough to reassure her that everything will be okay.

Pandemonium ensues.

There’s something about the last 2 days before a big vacation. No matter how much you prepare, how much you clean, there’s still enough to do that it is almost overhwelming. Pack up the bathroom. Wipe down the sinks. Get the kids breakfast. Burn photo CD’s for clients. Don’t forget to put everyone’s PJ’s in their suitcase. Too much bathroom stuff – not going to fit in the duffel. Cara has an accident – have to clean her up. Shove shoes in corners and under seats in the car. Pack the cooler for lunch on the road.

Everything is finally loaded, the sheets have been cleaned and put back on the beds ready for those who will sleep in them over the next 6 months, and the rooms have been double-checked for anything we might have left. Walking through our house is almost surreal. Its so…. empty. Nothing in the closets, all the toys put away, the floors swept. It’s time. We say a family prayer of thanksgiving and ask for protection before streaming out the door and climbing into the car.

We take a deep breath, and then its time to leap.

 

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Spring Cleaning

 

If only it were THAT easy. Wow. Remember all the cleaning that, as a house owner, you are “supposed” to do on a regular basis? Blinds? Baseboards? Wiping cupboards inside and out? How many of you actually DO this? Don’t be shy. Raise your hands where I can see them! Hopefully most of you are better than me, as I seem to be very talented and putting this type of housework off until.. well… never.

In 3 weeks we’ll be house swapping with another family for a few months. Never just became tomorrow.

Out comes the dust mop, and the broom, and the insane long honey-do list of everything we ever meant to do with the house since we moved in.  Suddenly every speck of dirt laughs at me, and every smudge on the wall is mocking my efforts. I sat down with the kids and we made “The List”. Everything that needed to be cleaned, washed, wiped down, wiped out, or removed before we left. Its long. And scary. And daunting. Even more so when your cleaning help consists of a 7, 5, and 3 year old. I decided that we would pick 1 thing everyday and just do it. Little things like “wipe down all the doors in the hallway” or “wipe baseboards in 1 bedroom” or “wash walls in the kitchen”. It has definitely been more manageable in bite sized chunks, but after only 2 weeks of this we are completely and utterly slacking. Gone. Poof! It doesn’t help that we’ve been sick (cleaning up after my 5 year old at 1:00 am on my birthday is a total riot – let me tell you!) so I’m hoping that starting… umm.. next week, we can get back on track.

In the meantime, our house swapping partner and I have agreed to not judge.

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Riding a (Metric) Century

It’s 9:55 on a Saturday morning, and we’ve been riding for 2 hours and 26 minutes. We’ve traveled 39.3 miles, and make it to the second rest stop, a park right next to the Syracuse Fire Station, a few miles south-west of Clearfield, Utah. We are soaking wet.

The last time I participated in this ride, I worked up quite a sweat. This time, it wasn’t sweat. We were soaked with rain water. Oh, and the temperature is a balmy 42 degrees. It wasn’t supposed to be.

Riding a century early in the cycling season was a really great idea. We have a significant amount of travel starting mid-summer, and an early century motivates early training. We would be in good shape early in the year, and have accomplished one of our goals together prior to the busy schedule of our summer adventures. I had been checking the weather, and it reported light rain showers and 55 degree temps. Better yet, everything was supposed to clear up (and warm up) by 2pm, allowing a pleasant completion to our victorious ride. It was barely raining at all as we rolled out of downtown Salt Lake City at the official 7:30 am ride start time. No worries, I thought. We can do this.

Ok, back to the wet cyclists at the rest stop. Our stop was brief, as had been the stop earlier in the day. Two years ago I rode a metric century (100 km, 60 mi) during a late snowstorm, and I had learned to get back on the bike as soon as possible to keep our bodies from cooling down too far. We munched a few snacks, and considered our options. We really aren’t the quitting type, and Antelope Island beckoned to us. We decided quickly to head out to Antelope Island as I wriggled my hands back into my soaking wet 3 season cycling gloves. Jess had the luxury/pain of riding with fingerless gloves, and I’m still not sure which was the better option, given the difficulties I experienced.

We headed up the street, being joined by another fellow on his first century. His group had all turned around earlier, but he was determined, and we were happy to have him. Within just a few minutes, I could feel my legs again, and a few more gave me back my arms as well. As we reached the causeway, the smoothness of the road reached perfection, and we made good time out to the island. After a brief loop on the island, we headed back along the causeway. The rain began to let up, and we even paused for a picture.

As we continued our way back to the shore, something horrible happened. I got really slow and tired. A mere 55 miles or so into our ride, and I was bonking. I wasn’t supposed to.

I’ve ridden 4 centuries prior to this one (and that one metric in the snow), and both Jess and I had done decent amounts of training. Our longest ride was up to 70 miles, and had included some climbing. This should have been sufficient training for the 100 miles we had set out to ride. It would have been sufficient, had it not been raining. The volume of water we experienced caused three problems.

First, it made drafting difficult. During long rides, cyclists take turns ‘pulling’ the group, whilst the others hunker down in the draft of the lead cyclist. Add significant surface water to this practice, and each rider gets a facefull of road water and grit, spun directly into the mouth and eyes by the cyclist just ahead. In addition to constantly sputtering the sand out of our mouths, we had to make a real effort to drink enough water to keep us hydrated.

Second, my full finger gloves made eating difficult. I almost always have an open snack in a bar-top bag on my bike, and I snack as I ride to keep my body happy. Given the water, fruit snacks were the best option I had. I did manage to eat them, but each time it required a significant amount of futzing to grasp the slimy, wet snacks with my soggy, cold fingers.

Third, the volume of water introduced new areas of chaffing not planned for. All the usual *ahem* areas were covered, but several unexpected areas became very painful as I rode. We had brought some glide, but by the time I noticed the problem, the damage was done.

As we again reached the 40 mile rest stop (also the 60ish rest stop), we stopped again to re-evaluate our condition. During the time we had been riding the causeway, a significant number of cold cyclists had reached the stop, most in ill condition and spirits. The blessed folks at the Syracuse Fire Department welcomed all of us into the engine bay of the fire department and cranked up the heat. At that point, nearly everyone was working out a warm, dry way to get back to Salt Lake City, and very few were headed back out on the bike.

The timing of it all was very unfortunate, as the storm had just passed us, and beautiful blue skies greeted us outside. Had we not just exhausted ourselves riding through the rain, it would have been a beautiful afternoon for a ride. As it was, we rode our bikes a few miles to the train station, and joined the others taking a similar trip south.

I really do hate to quit. It leaves an uneasy feeling and plenty of second guessing. Failure makes plain our limitations, and that can be an uncomfortable experience. Even with the pain involved, I would rather choose failing awesome over weak success.

On the the train back, we consoled ourselves with our accomplishment of a metric century in bad conditions. We also used the few hours of reclaimed time to see Star Trek: Into Darkness.

Which was excellent, by the way.

 

 

 

 

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A Buzz Lightyear Birthday Party

Surprisingly, we have a little daughter that is obsessed with Buzz Lightyear. Not princesses, not My Little Ponies, not the entire Toy Story Clan. Just Buzz. And occasionally Zurg because, well, they are arch enemies after all. We have a bucket of little Disney figures (purchased long ago for another child) that has a 2″ Buzz Lightyear character. I can only assume that is where her obsession comes from, as her and Buzz have been best friends for months. So, when her 3rd birthday was fast approaching I mentioned the idea of having a Buzz Lightyear party and she immediately agreed! All she talked about for weeks was her “Buzz Lightyear cake” and how amazing her party was going to be. And, amazing it was. 🙂

For the record, I love decorating cakes. Even when I was little, I’d decorate all my siblings cakes with cute little figurines and colored buttercream frosting. Pretty quickly after we starting having kids, we purchased a little cake decorating set and I think I’ve done one almost every year for each of my kids. However, I have this amazing neighbor that pulled off a wickedly cool fondant cake for her daughter a few months ago and I begged her to teach me. So, she did. Voila!

Fondant is really not as hard to work with as you might think – my friend helped me cover the cakes with the two different shades of blue, and my awesome cousins who were staying with us at the time helped me cut shapes, and roll balls. I think it turned out pretty good, yes? Rachel (who had the coolest My Little Pony cake a few years ago) asked me why her and Andrew didn’t get really awesome cakes for their birthdays? Ugh. The bar has been set.

One of our little birthday traditions is that we have a HUGE breakfast. Sam and I (well, sometimes just me) decorate the kitchen the night before while they are sleeping so its “go time” as soon as they roll out of bed. Each kid has their favorite breakfast – and Cara’s this year was waffles with strawberry syrup and whipped cream. Yum!!

Sam & I had a huge hike to go on with the Young Women in our ward, so we postponed festivities until later that evening. We had my family over for dinner, presents, and cake & ice cream. Rachel & Andrew were super cute with their presents! They spent a lot of the morning writing stories, drawing pictures and wrapping them in LOTS of wrapping paper. BUT, it was so cute to see how excited they all were!

We got her a “Big Buzz” and she was immediately in heaven.  Epic battles between Buzz & Zurg commenced.

The cutest thing was that we had to tell her that Buzz couldn’t blow out her candles, she had to actually do it herself.

Party on the inside too!! This is actually super easy to do – you just color the cake batter in a few different bowls and then layer it in before baking.